This is our story....of love, life, and adoption

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I want...

* to talk about something other then adoption
* to stop obsessing about time lines
* to stop waiting
* to have an answer, when someone asks "what's going on with the adoption"
* to know when our child will be home
* a "paper pregnancy" that parallels a real time pregnancy
* to stop putting our lives on hold
* to feel free to spend money instead of saving for an adoption that is taking forever
* to feel secure that this will really happen

* hope that one day I will no longer talk about adoption, but our child
* knowledge that I am not alone
*to continue to wait
*no real answers to "what's going on with the adoption"
*no understanding of when he will be home, BUT THAT he will one day come home
*a "paper pregnancy" of two elephants(did I just compare myself to elephants?)

*to hold on just a little bit longer....or more, but we will
*money in the bank and that's always good, adoption or not



shelley said...

Hugs to you sweet one. You are so brave and strong to still find the positive spin on the worst thing in the world....waiting

Tisra said...

You're doing it! You're really doing it, and it WILL happen. I'd say you're probably doing more than you ever thought you were capable of. We're all on pins and needles with you and hoping with you to see your sweet long-awaited child! And, while many of us are waiting for our own children, I can safely say that great rejoicing will happen when *The Ann* of Taiwan adoption fame finally gets her referral!!! :-)

Annie said...

And your hope and faith will keep getting you through! It will really happen Ann, and I will be thrilled for you when that day finally comes.

Anonymous said...

I agree with Annie. It's going to happen and when it does, there is going to be a huge celebration throughout the adoption world. We're rooting for you. Stay strong.

Jeter Mama said...

oh Ann, this was GOOD.
Thanks for some inspiration this morning.

redmaryjanes said...

It's really hard right now. I completely understand how you are feeling.

Abby's Mom said...

I know just what you mean! Hang in there ;0

Doris & Dan said...

You are in my head and in my heart. Reading this was like reading my soul.


Keep smilin!

TaiwanMommy said...

you forgot one under I HAVE:

*friends who love and support me and are all cheering me on because they know I'll be a fantatic Mommy!

yup. Count me in THAT group.

love you-
Val and the Girls

Andy & Rebecca said...

I second Val's comment!! :)

Keep believing - your faith has brought you this far, it WILL carry you to the happy end of this wait!!

Just think, Ann, how many people all across the world will be doing a big collective "WOOOO-HOOOOOOO!" when your referral happens!! I bet they'll hear it in space. The astronauts will be like, "WHOA, what just happened, did we finally accomplish world peace??" Nope, Ann got her referral!!! :)


Sherry said...

Im sorry this wait is taking forever!! I hope right now that your babies birth mama is looking at your photo's saying "I choose them".

Sending hugs your way:)

Sarah said...

Ann, Send me an email with an idea of what you would like your blog header to look like... and if you have any graphics or photos you'd like in it. I'll make a blog design for you and you can use it if you like it. :) e-mail me at

amazing grace said...

well said Ann!!!! hugs!