Waiting…

That’s all we know .
For years we waited for you to grow in my belly..
Patiently knowing that the seed would be planted and you would grow
….from our flesh and dreams, a child you would become.

But God had other plans for you
….and for us.
We had to wait…
You had to wait to grow..

We know this now...
and so we wait.

God chose another woman where you will grow for us
She will become your first mother
Her flesh will sustain you as you grow
Her heart will teach you of love
Before you are ever born

God told this woman, your first Mother that she too has to wait..
..wait for the right family to be there for you.

With a heavy heart she too will make the choice to wait
To wait to parent and wait for us…
To come together to be your forever family
Your Mommy and Daddy.

So Across continents…we wait
Across oceans…we pray
Across time…we know

You are waiting too..

The seed has been planted…
Our dreams, they will grow.

Her belly..
Our Heart.

We are all waiting child..
For you to become.

Please wait patiently our child
We are coming
We are waiting

Yes, we know..
You are waiting too….

-Mommy

Alllllright...I've been tagged....I'll play

Tag, and I'm IT! and then you're NEXT!

Okay, I have been tagged by Malou so here is MINE!!!

Seven Things

Seven things I'd like to do before I die:

1. Be a Mommy, and be good at it(obvious one)
2. Be a stay at home Mommy, and be good at it
3. Go back to Hawaii
4. Scuba the great reefs
5. Meet the Pope
6. Be able to run without my shins splitting, the back hurting, or my gastroc tearing
7. Sing in public---I really can sing...seriously!!

Seven things I can't do:

1. Keep my house clean like my Mother
2. higher level math, or math at the Walmart checkout-ask Jon I argued once with the lady at Walmart....about what I was owed....I was wrong!!
3. Maintain my weight...yuppers I'm a yo-yo'er
4. Run, without my shins splitting, my back hurting, or my gastroc tearing...really I've tried!
   
5. Go ONE FLIPPIN' day without checking all my blogs, yahoo groups, myspace, or emails
6. Live without a dog...or two..
7. Manage to get all the laundry washed, folded and put away in a week
   

Seven things that attracted me to my hubby:

1. Pure Chemistry
   
2. His big Heart!!
3. The fact that not having children was NOT an option
4. The importance of his family
5. That he's a Mommas boy
6. That he trusts me
7. That he loves me without condition
   

Seven books (or series of books) that I love

1. Marley and Me(get out the kleenex)
2. The Notebook(More kleenex please)
3. King of the Wind(my fav book as a kid)
4. The Horse Whisperer(Notice a theme)
5. Dean Koontz stuff
6. Anything by Nick. Sparks(I'm a sap)
   

Seven movies I'd watch over and over:

1. Dirty Dancing(I know all the dances, ask Jon, I've shown him)
2. Good Wil Hunting(How you like them apples)
   
3. Beaches(you are the wind beneath my wings..I can sing it too)
   
4. Brokedown Palace(If you haven't seen it..do so)
5. How to loose a Guy in 10 days(..ummm my Matthew's in it)
6. Salton Sea(It's NOT a drug movie...)
7. The Notebook
   

Seven people I'd like to tag:

1. I don't know 7
2. people that haven't
3. already been tagged
4. so, I guess
5. you're just
6. stuck
7. with lil' ole me
   

Have a good night all...

It's hopping out there..

"Out there" being the adoption world and in particular Taiwan. Everything seems to come in spurts. It'll be a while before anyone hears anything...no referrals, no travel, no calls. And just as everyone starts to feel despondante, someone gets a travel call. Then another person gets court approval, then two people get referrals. Then another and another and you can feel the exicitement building. You can feel the energy. I belong to several yahoo adoption groups, either specific to Taiwan, our agency, or Florida. Let me just say that these families are so wonderful and even though we haven't met, everyone is such a great support.
When you go through infertility, and for us it's been 4 years now, pregnancies and baby showers become so difficult. It's not that you aren't happy for other people. I mean they aren't getting pregnant to spite you. You aren't unhappy for those people either, you just become sad for yourself. You don't want to be sad when someone tells you that they are pregnant, but you just are. It's hard to explain if you haven't been through infertility, but you are. It's difficult then because you begin to feel guilty for not being as happy as you feel you should be. It's been like that for some time for us. I can't tell you how many times we cried together when we heard the news of someone else that was pregnant. But things changed the minute we decided to Adopt instead of try IVF. Then it was okay, because we weren't sad for ourselves everytime someone else got pregnant. You become excited again. I was thinking about this as all the referrals started pouring in. I find myself drawing energy from them and I'm not sad that it's them and not us. I thought I would be, but I'm not. I get so excited now when someone gets that call or I read all about their first meeting with their child. I check the boards many times a day to see whats happening. These Yahoo groups are great...and as you watch their stories unfold you get so much hope that one day your family will become complete. So as I read about landings in Taiwan, Gotcha Days, and referral news and see that it is indeed hopping out there right now, I draw on this and gather all the strength I'm gonna need for this wait.

Okay so this is how I feel sometimes. I found this on another adoption blog called Do they have salsa in China and they have t-shirts and stuff you can buy. I am so buying this shirt.

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Officially 1/3 of the way to our baby...maybe

Okay today marks 3 months on the waiting list. Things are starting to move out there. I've heard of several referrals. Two couples from our agency rec'd referrals in the last week. YAY for them. That means we're two referrals closer. The wait for a referral was 6-12months, but recently the wait time has increased. UGGGHHH!! Now it's 9-12 months. So with that in mind we are 1/3 of the way to the minimum wait. Hopefully time will fly by and we will get our referral by the end of the year. We are confident that once our album is shown we will be chosen. We have to think positive eh? For every couple that receives a referral we are closer, so here' to hoping there are more referrals coming.

"Stop Lookin' at my hairy legs!!!!"

...that's what I said...
Jon's reply..."they weren't hairy when we were just friends"
Yah well we weren't married then, huh?

So as you can tell I have nothing to tell you about the adoption, we're waiting.. so I've resorted to giving you glimpses into our marriage.

This is not a high point!