This is what REALLY happened. I was at work, so that means frumpy green scrubs, blue clogs, hair up in an OR scrub hat with frogs on them(get the picture), I just finished scrubbing out a friend, I was back at my desk, which by the way is in the back, in the supply room..sorta office space style. I was putting an instrument tray together, getting frustrated, when in the left pocket....vibrate, vibrate....who could that be?.....it's an out of state number.....it can't be...that's not Bonnie's number(We know we're waiting for a call from Bonnie)....do I answer and hang up, like I do with wrong numbers, or answer.....I stare at the phone, lean back, answer....
Hi Ann, this is Bonnie from FHSA
(still calm)is this "the call"
yes, this is the call.....
OH MY GOD
I come tearing out of the room running, sobbing out loud. Now let me just explain, this was not the single tear running down a cheek. I'm talking snotty sobbing, out loud sobbing, screaming sobbing, heaving sobbing screaming and I apparently didn't know what to do..so I was running/pacing up and down recovery room. They actually heard me on the adult side and one girl came out ,found me leaned up against the wall sobbing, started hugging me and telling me it's going to be okay....
"We have a baby, we have a baby"
more hugging, "okay, so this is good crying!!"
"yes, yes, we have a baby!!"
By that time all my friends have come out to see what happened, and basically who died.
"This the call we've been waiting for" more sobbing
meanwhile, Bonnie is trying to get the fax number
Now I tried really hard to give her the fax number, but apparently, so I've been told, I was not well understood, I wasn't making any sense...so I just handed off my cell phone to my friend.
She then finished talking with Bonnie, who got the fax number and told her to tell me that when I calmed down and could breath, to call her back.
I then got on the phone to call and try and wake up Jon. I called four times, no answer.
Finally I screamed/sobbed into the answering machine that he needed to get up, he needed to call me, why was he not answering the phone.
Welp...he heard me on the machine...again thinking that someone had died...he bolted out of bed, and later we would come to learn, he popped a rib out of place....got to the phone, called me back...
"we have a baby!!"
He thought that something terrible had happened and at that point was in a lot of pain.
so then I looked down on the piece of paper that I had written down ALL the information on the baby and all I saw was.....
IT'S A GIRL!!!!!! But you see that right, that's all I wrote. That's all the information I had...at that point the fax started coming through. I'm on the phone people are gathered around me. My SIL who sometimes works on my side is walking up from lunch, sees everyone gathered around me and me sobbing and thinks something horrible has happened to Jon. I just put up that piece of paper with "girl" written on it. GIRL...can you believe that. So Jon asked me what her name was and I proceeded to give him the wrong birthdate and the social workers name(thinking it was our baby's name). I was shaking and so NOT calm. So when Jon started passing on information it was wrong. I am such a total dork!!!
Then I found out that they had put a patient in the back room, which is right close by the room that I came screaming out of. Luckily a coworker explained to the family what was going on. Because I am sure that all the screaming and sobbing scared the family. It's a Girl!! We have a daughter. All this time we thought little boy. I was and still am absolutely stunned that we have a daughter. We already had the medicals examined and accepted last night. I'll let everyone else know what's next in another post. We anticipate photos in 2-4 weeks. It's all really a blur. I wish I could tell the story better. I am just so overwhelmed with happiness.
I my minds eye I thought I was be so pulled together. I would be calm, cool, and collected. Let me just tell you that I was so far from cool. I so lost control. I just couldn't hold back all the emotions. It's been a long time coming. We have tried for so long to start a family. So so long. And after all the years of tears being shed out of sadness...I had some making up to do and had just as many tears shed in joy!
For some reason I can't seem to put into words how I feel right now. I am grateful. I am humbled by the path that has been layed before us, I am amazed. I am stunned. I am scared. I am in love with a child I have never seen. I am the Mommy to a baby girl!!
update @ 9pm: sorry guys I forgot to give any more details. She was born November 3rd, 2007. She is at Cathwel. She's healthy. Her name from us is being debated at the moment.