Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I've really been trying to talk with Claire about adoption, although she doesn't grasp it at all. I just don't want her to have never heard the word. I was looking through her baby book with her and talking with her about it. In the back of her baby book is an envelope that closes. I have her birthfamily pictures in there that way when she is older she can choose what to share. But, we were looking through the pictures together and there is a picture of her birthmother holding her. Claire looked at it and said "mommy"......now she often will see women and say mommy or men and say daddy, but that was like a stab through the heart. I know it shouldn't have been because no matter how I feel or how I want to clarify or label the relationship, it is her birthmother. But I wasn't sure what to feel. One one hand I know I shouldn't be hurt by that and I should want to be open and all..but on the other hand I'll be honest I don't want her to be calling her Mommy. I just don't. I know it's not politically correct and I know that I should feel other wise, but is it wrong?
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