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Saturday, December 09, 2006

It's been 9 months!!!

OMGAWD!!! It's been 9 months. Now seriously I know I should be celebrating but it's been 9 months. Never did I think we would go nine months and I can't even tell you what the wait will be now. I feel like this wait will never end and to put the icing on the cake I'm having effed up dreams now. I won't tell you all exactly what the dream was, but it was very disturbing. It involved a very cute baby boy and my inability to...well I'll just say that in my dream I was performing CPR on him, b/c I apparently didn't "remember" that I had a child and was very neglectful. My friends have told me it's because I'm nervous about being a Mom. And I know I've heard about women being pregnant and having very vivid dreams about their yet to be born children. But I could seriously do without the totally messed up dreams. And I know that we are on the downslide, but could it go any faster.....PLEASE!!!!!

11 comments:

malou said...

Wow, 9 mos! Time does go by fast. I am sorry about your disturbing dream, Ann. It's just a bad dream, like you said you are so nervous that you had this bad dream. I know you will make a great mom, Ann and JOn will be a great dad!

Anonymous said...

Ann~

I can totally agree with you about the WAITING! It seems like forever!
As far as the dream goes this is how I would analyze it~I think that we are so excited to become 1st time mama's that there is always still a fear that it wont happen. So your mind knows that this whole process is completly out of your hands. I think that the whole "forgetting about baby" part in your dream is just how your mind is dealing with this long wait. Its just preparing you for the worse & the baby you are trying to do CPR (& its not waking up) is really a way that your mind relates visually to this "Out of your hands" process.

Now of course this is coming from a women who hasnt slept in month's but Hang In There!! It will happen & I will be wishing "Happy Dreams" your way:)

Jennifer "Jenny" said...

Happy 9 months down! Welcome to the overdue and then some club!

jeneflower said...

You are nine months along. Congrats for making it this far. Everything that happens passed now is WAY over due. I don't know what to tell you about the strange dreams. They stopped for me after our referral. I don't know if that is common or not.

Connie said...

Weird...I just left a weird dream comment on another blog. It must be going around.

Sorry, I know they are REALLY disturbing but I hope it means your kid is getting closer! In pregnancy that stuff starts really kicking in the third trimester. Only fair that you be in 'the last trimester' of your wait too.

David and Janalee said...

Wow! 9 months! That is huge. The dreams happened to me also, mine involved not being able to locate the baby...almost like I was in a giant maze trying to find her and then the time ran out and they told me I could not have her anymore...I woke up in sure panic! hope you have better dreams soon, and congrats on waiting this far.
Janalee

Anonymous said...

9 months - congratulations!!! Shouldn't be long now. I keep thinking of you and hope for a referral very soon.

Anonymous said...

I remember having those awful dreams when I was pregnant. We would roll on top of the baby while sleeping - it was horrible. Maybe this is a sign that you're baby is coming soon :D Your in my thoughts and prayers sweetie.

Luke Martin said...

Hi Amy, I am so sorry it has been 9 months. Maybe your body is assuming there is a baby becuz it has been 9 mths. The feelings stay with you but waiting so long things just seem wrong and ones dreams start to get strange. I won't bother you with mine, they were just sad. I hope your child arrives soon. I remember when you started, can't beleive it has been this long. hang in there
Sheri

Anonymous said...

Yippee!!!!! 9 Months down. That is awesome. You have less time to wait now than you had 9 months ago. It'll happen, soon. I'm thinking happy thoughts for you. And I hope those dreams go away. They are no fun. I had them too. (Someone kept taking my baby away and try as I might, I couldn't get to her.) Here's to happy dreams from here on out!

Jan

Ryan and Heather said...

wow 9 months! I can't believe you've waiting 9 months either-that seems soooo long...but I know I"ll be there someday soon and it will be worth it, it will!! Someday you won't even remember what life was like before your little bundle came into it! Everyone says the wait will fly by with the Holiday season-no...it doesn't at all...the holiday season has felt like an eternity this year. UGH!
Well at least you know you are waiting with friends-we all feel your pain!