This is our story....of love, life, and adoption

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

1 year ago today...

See I knew that there was something that I wanted to write about. But for the life of me I couldn't figure it out. The large print on the calendar should've clued me it. I can be so not with it sometimes...like when I was adding $5, and $5 to $24....I had to think about it...Duh!! I even asked the lady if I was adding it right....ummmm... ADD $10. See what all this adoption stuff does to your brain. Oh wait...I digress...today...1 year ago..we started our adoption. I'm so giddy about this. I remember how nervous and excited we were about it. We were so careful about filling out the application. We knew what a big step this was. If many of you don't know, Jon and I struggled with infertility for a very long time. Last year it was 3 1/2 years of TTC(trying to conceive). We actually were in the process of saving for IVF. We were pretty close to having all the money for ONE shot at it. I just felt that it wasn't the right choice for us at the time. So we jumped back onto the adoption discussion. So much stress was involved with TTC, so much pressure, so many tears. And when we filled out the application all that pressure, all that stress was lifted graciously from our shoulders. Now I'm not saying that there isn't a whole party full of stress now, but it's different. When we filled out that application, said a prayer, sealed it and mailed it, we were able to breath. We were at peace. It had been a long time since we were able to breath and look at eachother in a whole new light. There were no more schedules, no more sex only on this day, or not on this day. No more sitting on my head afterwards, no thermometers, no more peeing on a stick, no more calendars, no more monitors, no more doctors appointments, and no more 2 week wait. Goodbye to all that happened the minute we sealed that envelope. Last year at this time, we became again just a married couple. It was so refreshing. Then 4 days later we had our first homestudy visit. Talk about fast. But last year on this date we were very excited and very hopeful. Today I celebrate that!!!

13 comments:

eggrolls and chopsticks said...

Happy anniversary!
Such a wonderful and heartfelt post that it made me cry....doesn't everything?

Sealing the envelope is such a huge rush that can only be explained to someone who has BTDT.
Thanks for the flashback.

Connie said...

Beautiful post! It gets so hard to stay positive in the wait sometimes.

Hanging on to some of that feeling from when the journey was fresh and new .....ahhhh, the hope!

Ann, I so hope it won't be an eternity longer although I know each day feels just like that.

Thanks for putting a positive note in my day.

Anonymous said...

What a relief to be thermometer & chart free for one year! YEAH for that! (So you have been paper pregnant for 12 months) Let me tell you what another adoptive mama told me...If God wanted to mess w/ this body he would have. LOL! That being said... I have a feeling that the year of the PIG is gonna be one great year for your family! Hang in there. "The Call" is coming!!

Anonymous said...

I couldn't have written my story better. As time goes by I worry that our dreams will never materialize. I worry that I'll be too old. Or that I'll lose interest in wanting to be a momma... crazy talk, I know...

From what I've read, you seem to have yourself pretty well put together. The more I learn on Vietnam the more I want to know. I don't know where our daughter is, but I hope that she will reveal where in 2007 so we can get busy!

Happy New Year and thank you for sharing your journey on blogger.

Anonymous said...

pssst, could you point me in the direction of Taiwan? I spent all December with Vietnam and I'd like to research Taiwan in January... yep that's right, taking it a month at a time... afterall I have a year to get through and I want to hit the ground running when it's time to pick an agency...

Thanks!

TaiwanMommy said...

Annie- send Frances to our adoptingfromtaiwan (with no underscores) Yahoo! group.

I did the whole TTC thing for years, too. In fact, I was a counselor at Fertility Friend, a sight many are familiar with. I know JUST how you felt, and how much better this feels, now.

This IS your year. You'll be fine! It's coming! I promise!

xoxox
val

Anonymous said...

Happy Anniversary. I totally get why you dont want to do fertility tx. there is no fun in fertility treatment!

Anonymous said...

Ahhh...that's the happy Ann I know (albeit via cyberspace). It's coming VERY SOON. I've got my fingers crossed for you. Happy Adoption Anniversary!

Jan

Anonymous said...

I love your fresh outllok. It is great to be positive in your perspective. But I also enjoy your gripes. I hear you!

jeneflower said...

You made a great choice! This will be the year you will become a family! Enjoy your time together without stress!

Lucia, Adam, Noah and Camille said...

A good anniversary to celebrate! Your child is waiting for you in Taiwan and I am sure 2007 will be a very good year for you and Jon.

Jennifer "Jenny" said...

Your So Positive! Praying for good things for your family this year!

NikkiNix said...

Hey girl - I have to admit, ealing the envelop sounds a loooottt more appealing than jabbing my butt with oily substances that cause allergic reactions and aligator face :(

I miss you :)
~Nikki