This is our story....of love, life, and adoption

Friday, March 09, 2007


You all knew it was coming. Our 12 month waiting anniversary. We never believed that we would go to 12 months. When we started only one family had gone this far and it was a larger family. No other families in our situation had to wait this long. But we knew it was coming. And even though sometimes it seems like I'm crazy-positive-then not so positive, it's just difficult. One day we're okay with the wait. Then you get this sick to your stomach feeling another day and it's hard to let go. You start to worry and wonder. You try not to let it get to you, but it does. You try to remain positive, but can't. Then the next day you're okay. Sometime I feel kinda manic. But I know I'm not. Twelve months....what can I say about twelve months. We are on the downslide now. And even though we probably have many many more months, each month gone is one month closer to our child. The agency has said that the wait is 12-14 months. I truly feel like they will revamp this statement soon. I think it will be more like 16-20. It sucks, but it is reality. And when people ask us how we can wait this long. My response is always, "what choice do we have?" We can choose to wallow day after day, feeling sorry for ourselves. Or we can "cowboy up" and move on. We can revel in the fact that we are closer to our child. We deal. That's who we are. We are not the constant wallowers. We will not let it drag us down, because we are so much more than a wait right now. We are going to have our family. That's the fact. And if we have to wait longer. Well...we will. Because life, despite it trying to break us ,will not. WE ARE STRONGER THAN THIS WAIT!!! So raise a glass with us tonight my friends. Because we EFFIN made it to 12 months!!!

14 comments:

eggrolls and chopsticks said...

Cheers to 12 months.
Such a great post as always from you. You just always hit the nail on the head.

jeneflower said...

I remember when you posted it was your 6 month wait... it wasn't that long ago. Really your child will be here before you know it! You have a great attitude!

malou said...

hurray to 12 months!!! Ann and Jon, I believe that things happen for a reason but I know you will get your child soon bcoz' the lord works in mysterious ways and both of you are kind people. There is one lucky child out there that will have you both to be their mom and dad.

Jennifer "Jenny" said...

Thats the ticket! Happy 12 months, Your turn will come!

Anonymous said...

My glass is raised to you both. Happy 12 month anniversary! (ANd they said it couldn't be done) I predict a Father's Day referral. Maybe even a Mother's Day one. Let's start a pool and see who wins. In the end, it will be you two. You will have your child. If you want, I'll keep my fingers crossed for TWINS.

Jan

TaiwanMommy said...

Did I say April? Well. April is right around the corner, right? You'll be home in June.

Seriously, I'm sorry. This wait sucks. And YOU expecially don't deserve it. You're cheerful and wonderful, and the first BM to see your folder is gonna hop on the Annie Train. Til then, well, I'll keep posting Kyra-isms to try to make you smile.. because it really is YOU I think of when something comes flyin' out of her mouth. "Annie will LOVE this!" I think. Oh yeah.. I do indeed feel a need to make you smile as much as I can. And I just KNOW that next year, when I'm suffering through another wait for our boy that you'll be making me laugh with tales of "Jann" and how he cracks you up.

I send you big hugs til I can deliver some in person..

xoxo
val

Tamara said...

You said it! You are definately stronger then the wait, but I totally understand the manic feeling. Congrats on 12 months- wow a whole year.

Tamara said...

Your wedding picture is so romantic- who would have thought he waited 3 days to call?? obviously it all worked out in the end :)

C.J. said...

Woohoo...one solid year down. I'll put on some spurs and lets go rope some doggies in celebration!

NikkiMorrell said...

I miss you girl ;)

Doris & Dan said...

Happy 1 Year! It may suck but your attitude definitely makes up for it. What a great philosophy. It is one we try to abide by.

Closer and closer everyday!!!

Keep smilin!

marina said...

I went back to your first months posts and you said it would be 6-12 months to wait. You are going to get your baby soon! Hang in there!

Rhonda said...

Raising my glass...the 1 year anniversary is HARD. But just think..it will be the only one.

Tammy said...

That is such an awesome attitude. I raise a belated glass to you and Jon. Just catching up on all your posts.