Blogger is acting up tonight. It won't upload all the other pictures. So I'll leave you with this!!
There are still times when the fact that Claire is actually with us astounds me. Sometimes I look at her and it's like I'm in a dream, watching someone else's life. Someone with a child. Then it hits me all at once; this overwhelming realization that I'm not dreaming and she actually is ours and in our living room. I often have to choke back the tears when this happens. It feels so fresh at that point. People told me that after she was placed in our arms that I would forget the wait and forget the pain of what we went through. I haven't forgotten. And I don't think I will. I have my reflective moments, but then Claire bonks the dogs on the head with a very hard toy, or spills the water bowl all down the front of her freshly changed outfit. Then she's eating handfuls of dirt and diving off the couch all the while screaming and laughing. Those are also the moments when I sit back and choke back the tears because this is what I've waited so long for and it's better then I ever dreamed!!